March [ in pictures ]

March 2016 has got to be one of the best months that I’ll remember for life! I really love Instagram. I feel like without Insta, I would forget a lot of things that happened, but whenever I look back on the month of images, I’ll always be able to recall the memories and all the feels that came along with it. 

March felt like a month where I tried to recharge myself, which key word being 'tried' which means I didn't exactly succeed but I did try which is better than not trying at all right!

I actually travelled all the way down to ECP with KY to go san san xin. Which, well as you can imagine, it didn’t really happen. I had wanted to go alone, but we both had the same feels so we decided to go tgt. So while, I didn’t exactly do what I had wanted to, I was really happy to spend time with KY away from the places that we usually visit. And guess what, I kind of “forgot” how to cycle, but I managed to cycle on that day! I was a little afraid at first and even got “tsk” at by an auntie, but hey hey KY totes stood up for me lol. And yeah, as we cycled I got the hang of things. I’m quite embarrassed to actually admit this, but yeah. The more important thing now is that I can cycle again! It felt real good to be away from the hustle and bustle and with the wind in our hair. The only thing is…I got burnt really badly on my back because I was got lazy and didn’t properly apply the sun block lotion so even till now…there is a very distinct tan line *face palm* the price you pay for being lazy -.- 

We also brought Kaitlin to her first Disney On Ice show!! We were offered tickets for a review but since I had already bought them I decided to decline them. Nevertheless, we were pretty glad with the seats that we got! Oh yes, speaking of which! Kaitlin got to taste candy floss for the time! She liked the first bite but for some reason she didn’t want to have more after. Lol. I guess that’s good thing right?

Since it was the March hols, the bub’s school had Book Week! Something new as compared to previous years. Not surprisingly, we were informed pretty last minute that there would be a character parade. I haven’t really done anything for Kaitlin when it comes to dressing up and costume stuff. Usually, we would just find what we have and improvise from there or make do since well most of the students usually come to school in whatever they have when it comes to such events. Very different from international schools or kindys with a more international crowd. Nevertheless, I decided to just do a little something for Kaitlin! I had a hard time choosing which Eric Carle character costume to make, and eventually…K and I decided on the butterfly! My god. It took slightly less than two days to complete the wings, and this was when I was on full on mode. Like I barely used my phone and the only time I used my laptop was to refer to the images and instructions. Also, if not for KY coming by and deciding to help me I think I would have been up on the second night finishing it :O Literally wanted to KO after. Worst part was..the bub loved the wings, but cos of the elastics she didn’t want to wear it after awhile. We had to make it a little tighter so the wings would stay up so even though it was stretchy and stuff, K wasn’t very used to it. I honestly -.- cos like she was asking me to help her finish it quick and I was already -.- cos like girl, I’m trying my best but it takes time to get it to look good right. Oh and if you were wondering, Kaitlin did help and in fact it was in my plan for us to do it together but since we were time tight…I decided to just do it myself cos it would be much faster. Well..if you are wondering..the wings are at home now. They haven’t been touched since but I’m so not going to throw it away for at least a year and well hoep she picks it up to play!

The most memorable part of March was when I actually took a short partial solo trip out of the +65! It was the first time I was away from Kaitlin for more than two days and in fact the first time I’m in a different country from her. It’s really totally different than just being away from the home, because if anything did happen I would be able to rush back. But being in a foreign land means that would not be as easy to do and of course there are also risks when it comes to travelling. Well, I’m happy to say I did it! I flew and spent a few days by myself and the rest of it with Enna! So that means I travelled with a friend for the first time as well! I’ve travelled with the bunch of m:idea peeps after our internship which was like donkey years ago like before I had Kaitlin, but this time was different cos it was just the two of us! Before the trip, there were many times where I hesitated and I was consumed with mom guilt, but after a few years of considering it I finally did it and I’m actually thankful that I did. Thankful that I had the chance to do it, thankful for the husband and friends who took care of Kaitlin while I was away and most of all, thankful that Kaitlin didn’t have a major meltdown. I’m thinking of blogging more about the trip, like how I felt prior and after the trip and what I did while I was away, but I'll see how about that.

And to be back was another wonderful feeling!! Once I saw the bub I hugged her so tight cos it felt so good to be back to the little one and I was more than happy to start my mom duties! I usually have the super sian feeling when I’m returning back to SG from a holiday, but this time I didn’t and it was actually good cos honestly I hate that kind of feeling! I get so upset that we have to leave and go back to life, and in fact who wouldn’t feel that way right! But this time, I did feel a little sad to leave but I had something to look forward and that made me pretty happy! I did feel a little refreshed and recharged than I had wanted to and I did want to reflect a lot more about life and come back with a new mindset but that didn’t happen. I couldn’t force all that to happen, but it wasn’t a wasted trip. I was definitely able to take a break from mom duties, a vast difference to what I’m used to back in SG. Yes, there were many video calls with the bub, but I was able to have huge chunks of time without having to look out for someone else and try to think of 101 replies to various questions, or face someone throwing a tantrum. Don’t get me wrong, I love being a mom, I love motherhood, I love Kaitlin a lot, and in fact many times when I was on this trip I did wish she was around so I could show her this and that and let her experience what I did. I’m not quite sure how I should explain this, but I think if you’re a mom or a parent yourself, you would understand what I mean about life before having a kid! It’s not possible to be able to experience that until the kids are old enough to look after themselves and so whenever such opportunities come they are pretty extra special even if it’s for a few hours, and I got more than that so I actually felt like I was living the life of my peers and felt “young” again just that I knew that this was temporary. Now that I’m back, I just can’t wait to travel again! It’s super tiring planning and packing for a trip but you know what, whether it’s travelling alone, travelling with friends, or travelling as a family, I want to do it! 

April’s ending in a couple of days and I’ve evidently been pretty lazy with blogging. To be honest, lately I’ve been lacking the drive to blog, but we’ll see how that goes..if I’ll continue with blogging, but for now I’ll still be blogging my April in pictures post :)